Wow, so I actually did something productive today. I e-mailed BirdTalk magazine and asked them if they were in need of any photos. I have some (in my opinion) beautiful cockateil photographs, and I just thought.......well, maybe they might want to use them.
I don't know. At least I'm making an attempt. It says on the inside of the magazine cover that photographs and manuscripts are welcomed on an exclusive basis. I don't know if that means that they have a regular photographer and don't accept other photos very often or what.
I'm trying not to think about it too much. I'm just trying to give myself props for actually attempting to do something meaningful with my skills. I'm so tired of just working because I need a paycheck, even if the passion isn't in it. I really am. If they wanted to use my photos, I wouldn't care if they paid me or not. It would just be the most amazing thing ever. Of course, being paid for it someday wouldn't be a bad thing at all.
But I'm getting ahead of myself.
I've been tapering off my medication and I only have a couple more weeks to go. It's been pretty bumpy at times. But that's the nature of the beast, I guess. You feel like jumping off a cliff when you first start meds, and like you're on a mood rollarcoaster going off them. Why am I so used to this that it just seems normal to me?
I have been slacking on the vitamins and fish oil supplements, so I really have to do better, especially for when I am off the meds. Fish oil REALLY helps. I recommend it to anyone. You can get supplements that have been screened for mercury and PCP's in a health food store or organic section of a grocery store. I don't eat fish very often because for that reason, so it's important to take the fish oil.
I'm starting the next level of yoga tonight. It's Beginner/Gentle instead of Very Gentle. It's a different teacher, and I had her a couple of times in the beginning before she went off on a trip to India, so I know she's a more challenging teacher. But I guess I'm ready. I'll let you know how it goes.
That's about it, I guess. Work and future plans have been stressing me out, but I am trying so hard to keep my head above water. I want to get off these meds. The side effects have just gotten to be such a pain in the ass.
We'll see.
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