pre-travel ramblings

So, apparently 1.0 GB doesn't go very far. Gahhh! Having a hell of a time trying to decide what to put on the player.

Starting to have some twinges of anxiety. I hate how I always get like that before I go away. It's just a bit heavy sometimes hanging out with your family. I'm not used to the religious stuff anymore, so that can be weird. I told my mom that I was working toward becoming vegetarian and she wanted to know why, but of course I couldn't tell her the real reason. At least all of the truth. Like I'm trying to practice Buddhist principles of diet. The whole "don't take the life of anything living" thing. I'm still eating fish and poultry, though. Like most things in my life, I'm doing this in steps.

Anway, yeah, plus I hate being trapped on a plane with all these strangers in close proximity. And the INTRUSIVE security at the Bangor airport. The Orlando airport is so much better because it's bigger and the technology is better, and there is hardly any manual searching. God I hate it so much. I actually have to evaluate my choice of clothing and what shoes I'm wearing to make sure I don't get searched. But they always seem to single me out. I don't know if the huge amazon women security guards get a kick out of bullying smaller people, but it's how it makes me feel. Not a great feeling to start off w/ as you're getting ready to visit your family.

*sigh* I'm excited. I am. I don't know why I do this to myself.