Goals

So, I start my new job this Thurs. I'll be training Thurs and Fri. I won't be taking any tables or anything, just learning how everything works. Sometimes I am looking forward to getting this thing started and getting closer to Montana, but other times I'm terrified. I tried upping my dose of Buspar but it made me really tired and light headed, so I went back down to the original dose. I just keep telling myself that soon I will be settled there.

I'm going to yoga tomorrow after missing a bunch of classes. My cousin Nicole was gone on vacation and I couldn't seem to cope with going to class myself. The teacher is really hands on with students, telling you when you aren't holding a pose correctly, and sometimes it gets to be too much for me. It's hard enough being critiqued in front of a group, let alone having her put her hands on me to guide me. She's really nice, though. I wish I could just get over my anxiety. Now that Nicole is back, I've decided to try again because I do get a lot of good out the class. It helps ground me.

I've been thinking a lot lately about exercise and I readily admit that I'm one of those people that says I'm too tired to exercise. Part of it is my medication, but a lot of it is I just am not a morning person, so I never wake up early enough to exercise and when I get home from work I am too tired. I do think that once I start waitressing and leave for work later in the day, I can exercise in the late morning. I have decided to commit myself to walking every morning before work. Most days I won't have to be to work until 4:30, so there is no reason I can't do this.

Another thing I have been thinking about is how much I want to be off all synthetic medications. I do think that I need some sort of support for the summer & move, but I've been thinking that once I get the IUD, I might taper off the Celexa and Buspar and try St Johns Wort. I'm on such a low dose of the Celexa, that I think it would be O.K. I've been doing lots of reading, and I think it might be exactly the thing for me. I've never really been able to try it out because it effects the pill. But hopefully that won't be the case for much longer. Not only does it have anti-depressant properties, it can also help with PMS, which I admit is a bit of concern with going au natural with the IUD. Anyway, I would be so pleased if I could say I am on no meds except SJW. Not to mention, it rarely has side effects.

So these are my two goals for the summer~

1. Take a walk at least five days a week. Continue once a week yoga class and practice on own as much as possible.
2. After getting IUD, taper off meds and start on SJW.

Oh, and to not go crazy, but that's my goal every summer. :P