Habits...

Well, I've been putting off actually blogging because I was hoping to get a better template, but I guess this will have to do until I figure out how to get a better one. I really want something Patty related, so may have to recruit someone far more computer savvy to help me.

Not anything too exciting happening lately, except I have been feeling a lot better, and have really been trying to bring a little more peace and balance to my life. Whenever one gives up a bad habit, it needs to replaced with a better, healthier habit. My new camera has been a great start, but I've also started up yoga, something I've been wanting to do for awhile. I'm looking into taking a class with my cousin, but in the meantime I have purchased a DVD. It was filmed in Hawaii under this gorgeous tree, so not only do you get the ocean in the background, you get the shadows from the tree on the grass. I'm really enjoying it so far.

I've also gotten really into aromatherapy. I mainly got interested in this because of the insomnia I have been suffering from, and it's great. I'm positively obsessed with lavender, but I just purchased a tealight burner, so I'll have to start experimenting with some other oils. Last night I lit the candle while I did my yoga, and the smell of lavender while I was doing the poses really added to the experiance.

So things have been good. I did have a pretty good sized pang of loneliness last night, but instead of sinking my teeth into that feeling, or worse, trying to numb it away, I'll choose to do something about it. Like call my cousin to talk about getting back into hiking and also talk about the yoga class. We were hiking faithfully every Monday, and then had to skip a week, which turned into a month. We both hate the phone, so the days have just kept going by. I really need to pick up to the damn phone more, though. I am constantly moaning to myself about feeling disconnected, but I don't do anything about it. In the midst of depression it's completely normal to ruminate constantly but take no action. I'm really tired of living this way.

Of course I could list about 10 things right now that I want to do that I have been putting off because they're uncomfortable or scary. I guess one step at a time, right?